At a Crossroad

Ok. So I haven't been training at all the last two weeks because I freaked out and had a complete mental and physical mental block. I mean, how can I, a REALLY overweight person do this? I can barely run and it's been frustrating. I know these are just excuses and the weight not coming off is my fault ( I LOVE beer and food) and I hang out with my boyfriend who doesn't eat well and doesn't seem to care about it either. But it makes it hard to stay active and healthy. I came to the conclusion that I have 15 weeks and I might still be able to do it and I will still train (really hard) and attempt to do it. The only thing that will stop me is not getting the time off from work or if I get into my doctorate program. So, let the training begin (again)!