Changes

This past summer I decided to stop training for the Ironman and do a totally different Ironman (of sorts), get my Ph.D. It has been hard juggling school, work, family, and of course, planning for my upcoming wedding, but it has been well worth it, even with the weight gain;-). School has been tremendously rewarding and I hope I can keep it up even with all these life changes. I hope this blog helps keep me on track and motivate me to get back to a healthy lifestyle!

Nice Swim

I am just getting back into swimming after a Two week hiatus and today felt good. It must have been the sun:-). Everything is going my way, I am going to keep trucking through with the workouts and hope it all works out. I've been doing really well with keeping up writing my daily goals and eating well, too. I even was able to not eat the goodies I had for my class and it was CHOCOLATE!! Louisville, here I come?!!

Sun is shining...

Today was a good day. Got my teacher observation out of the way and it went really well. I'm going to miss this class. I also forced myself to go cycle for an hour. It was painful and I realized how fast I gained weight in the last two weeks of inactivity. But luckily, my friend Jen Cartwright challenged me to get in shape, sorta like a contest. Who is going to win??? ME!!! The Cavs blew it again so the night ended sourly, but at least Bryans back!!!

New Beginnings

Today was a start to a renewed me. After talking to Will, I've decided to write down my daily goals and try to reach them. This is easier than Freaking out over the bigger goal. Today I reached all of my goals. I might just be able to do it;-). Other then that, life is great.

At a Crossroad

Ok. So I haven't been training at all the last two weeks because I freaked out and had a complete mental and physical mental block. I mean, how can I, a REALLY overweight person do this? I can barely run and it's been frustrating. I know these are just excuses and the weight not coming off is my fault ( I LOVE beer and food) and I hang out with my boyfriend who doesn't eat well and doesn't seem to care about it either. But it makes it hard to stay active and healthy. I came to the conclusion that I have 15 weeks and I might still be able to do it and I will still train (really hard) and attempt to do it. The only thing that will stop me is not getting the time off from work or if I get into my doctorate program. So, let the training begin (again)!

Every Little Thing is Going to be All Right

My confidence has been lifted since I talked to one of my swim teammates who trains mostly indoors because he's a roadphobic too. I guess I have to get the spinervals video to help me. My running, although still slow, has gotten better because I'm now looking forward to the runs and my negative thoughts have become more positve and i've been eating better. This weekend I'm fixing a stripped screw in my bike seat, doing a long ride, a long run and practicing my nutrition. I still have my doubts, but I might be able to do it, especially if I hit my weight goal and get my nutrition down. After all, people have been through harder things in life then an Ironman. An ironman is just 16 hours of my life:-). 

Still Discouraged

Ok, so yesterday morning, I rode my bike for an hour from 5am to 6am.  I was supposed to do it for two hours, but I freaked myself out because it was so dark out and South Florida drivers are nortorious for hitting cyclists and not caring that we have a right to be on the road too.  I am getting discouraged because life is getting in the way of my training.  I got at least an hour to 2 hours a day in, but can't seem to get all the hours in necessary.  I am also discouraged because I slept through the FAU tri, I had no desire to do it this morning, I was so tired but I did get a good 45 minute spin class in (without an instructor, who didn't show up.) and I am discouraged because the weight is not coming off.  I only cheat one day a week (usually Saturdays,) and am careful about what I eat and nothing is working.  I am either too hungry and ignore it or I  stuff myself at night or just get pissed and eat. GRR!! ;-).  This coming week I only have to do twelve hours of working out and have nothing planned to stop me.  I am also really confused about how to train for the nutrition aspect of the race and haven't really done it.  Any suggestions? (Thanks, kerry, for the website, that has also helped), but I need more.
On a brighter note, I swam in a meet and was actually happy with my times, considering I am not focusing on swimming, I am focusing much  more on running/cycling.  The running, by the way, comes much easier to others than me and it makes me mad that I can't run more than  6 miles right now.  I have been doing this forever!  Ok, I was side-tracked, but yesterday was nice and it ended on a really bright note with Bryan's 31st birthday dinner.  It was nice to be surrounded by friends.  Off to the Bon Jovi concert tonight.